12 days from today Jacob & I will exchange these rings and say I do.
We still can’t believe it’s finally this close:). It seems like we’ve been counting down for so long-8 months to go, 6 months, 4 months, etc- that it didn’t seem like it would ever actually get here. Well, it’s here! So that means projects are in full swing & last minute details will have us running all across, down, and around town for the next week and a half.
I’m back in Springboro for the days leading up to the wedding and Jacob will come into town on Friday. We had a great shower from the ladies at Cross Roads Christian Church yesterday (thank you so much!) and left feeling so blessed and very, very showered with gifts!
This week Jacob has some projects to finish up for the wedding back in Tennessee and I’ll be finishing up the centerpieces, finalizing & printing the programs, and meeting with every person involved in the big day–the musicians, photographer, tent/chair/table rental business, etc… it’s time to write those last checks!
We’re also finalizing our apartment lease and will sign it this week, hopefully!
So, how are we doing? you might ask (this is for you Sarah)? We are growing and seeing a lot of sin, but choosing to love each other anyway. We’ve struggled with not meeting each other’s expectations in pretty much every facet of wedding planning in some way or another, learning to communicate better and being really honest with each other. We’ve struggled with jealousy and I’ve struggled with comparing our relationship, apartment, jobs, income, relationships with Jesus–the list just keeps going on–with several of our married or engaged friends. Honestly, it’s been messy and not loving to Jacob and more importantly not out of a heart that is satisfied and fully confident in the Lord.
So what, we don’t have a dishwasher and it’s a one-bedroom apartment? Praise God we have somewhere to live on our own and a place to show hospitality to others! Why in the WORLD am I concerned with the size, layout, and convenience of our apartment in comparison to our friends when, honestly, it’s not all about us. It’s about God. Just like our wedding day. And every day, for that matter. Our wedding is not about us; it’s about God. And how could my deceitful heart ever desire it to be any other way? Lord, may the gospel be heard and believed true in our hearts and our friends’ and family’s hearts on June 16!
I have been experiencing, learning about, and drinking in the Lord’s patience and faithfulness toward me during a season when it is so easy to throw a big party that is “all about me” and “my day.” Oh, how I pray that our day can be His day–a day when we will celebrate the truth, freedom, and beauty of the gospel and that Jesus is coming back for us all soon and very soon! Jacob, I am so excited to marry you! And I am so excited to experience with you a marriage that is a shadow of the marriage that we already have with Christ and will experience to its fullest some day soon.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends (1 Cor 13:7-8a).
God, your love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, and never ends. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am so thankful to experience this great journey and shadow of something even greater with my best friend and soon-to-be-husband. It’s been hard and messy, but beautiful. Oh, how He does make beautiful things out of us.